If you follow me on Instagram and watch my stories, you'll see that a couple of weeks ago I shared a raw and vulnerable moment when I was reminded of the police officer who sat with me during the longest 4 hours of my life.
To recap, I was scrolling through Instagram and saw a picture that someone had shared. In this picture was Officer K. I hadn't seen her since that day. But seeing her face, with her smile and bright eyes, brought out a flood of emotions. I could not stop the tears from streaming down my face. I could no stop rewinding to that afternoon and reflecting on the huge but subtle impact she made on my life forever that day. **If you're curious, you can go watch my story in my highlight named "Raw Moments".**
I was reminded of the kindness and grace she showed me in those dark moments. In moments where I was both begging and dreading for my phone to ring, not knowing what news I would be receiving when it did.
She offered a calming presence amongst all the internal chaos that was swirling around that dining room. She went and got coffee and snacks to help distract our minds from the million scenarios running through our heads. She reminded me that the longer it played out, the better our chances were that everything would end in the "best case scenario"; that no news in this instance really was good news.
Even though our town in a small town, I've never run into her. And maybe I wasn't supposed to. Maybe I was meant to have that quiet moment in my room of being reminded of this light that I had pushed to the back of my mind.
Having that moment alone in my room to reflect, I was able to see how she calmly, yet oh so effectively, brought light to my life that day. In the darkness, she offered light.
I have finally been able to write a letter to Officer K to thank her for that day. But it will never be enough. It will never fully represent my gratitude and admiration for her. It will never truly express how thankful I am that it was her who showed up on my doorstep that day.
If there is someone who has brought light into your darkness, they didn't do it for acknowledgment. But let them know how much it was appreciated anyways.
Take care of yourself and each other,